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PART I :
Arjun is sitting alone in his room pretty lost in his thoughts. Suddenly the old red telephone at his house makes a loud appeal Trin trin trin….!!! He wishes “ O god!!! Plz itz not mine.” I dnt know y u wish something not to happen and u tell god not to make it happen and it happens soon.
Arjun…arjun…….mom screams….there is a call for u beta!!!!!!! Momz r always cute na…they call u so sweetly. Now again while going to pick up d phone……m wishing “O god !!!! plz let it be not from Aryan “ .I pick the phone up and den the voice from other side “ hey arjun !!!! itz Aryan……!!!!! “ ( and again if u dnt learn from your mistakes u r bound to suffer in life…..i mistakenly had again prayed to god….and it had to happen…….it was Aryan on the other side……)
“Dude !!! IIT result is out……tell me your roll no…??? “ said Aryan.
I did listen what he said.but still i asked “what what ??“
“IIT JEE result is out…….” ur roll no.” Aryan insisted.
I looked around myself and could see mom was not far away. So i thought itz better not to tense mom about that. I said ” where r u Aryan ?? “ m coming…..!!!!
I hung up the phone and headed for our adda behind the playground where i had asked Aryan to meet me. I had told mom that m going out for some work with Aryan. Mom is d best person to whom u can lie easily and not get caught up.
Y the f*** they give results so early yaar….this was the only thought going through my mind. Anyways somehow i reached my so called adda. It was cool place to hang out with friends. And the best part about that adda was u could see so many young heartthrobs of our society without getting noticed. I had spent more time there than my study table. And this is quite obvious because u can notice so many things at first glance when u see a girl, u can spot her ear-rings, nail polish and so many details(not to be mentioned here
) …..but sometimes you read a whole page of your study book and you hardly understand a line. And this is life at its best…!!:J
Somehow i finally reached my adda.I could not see Aryan anywhere around.I was so excited about the results as chances were that i might have cleared.I was getting so tensed that i literally started cursing Aryan for being late.But better late than never, finally i could see Aryan coming my way.
“Arjun , results are out and the cafe guy has increased the charge for seeing the results too. He is charging 20 RS for every result whether u get through or not. Plus there is so much crowd there.”
Have you seen yours?? “i said”
“Nopes!!! M yet to see mine too.” Aryan replied
“have u brought your roll number or the admit card ??”he asked me.
“there is no need for that yaar , i remember it…it is 140447.” You rarely forget something very important for u in life. You never forget your girlfriends cell number even when you have deleted it after break up. isn’t it?? “
Aryan n me then rushed to the cyber cafe . We could see so many guys battling hard to give the cafe guy their roll numbers. i could hardly see any girl there. May be gals know their level and consider the option of saving RS 700 better than sitting for JEE and not clearing it. Then again they can buy some kewl girlish stuffs with that much money. I may be wrong in judging their calibre. May be they have sent their brothers to check the result.(who knows??)
) Whatever somehow i get lost sometimes somewhere. And this was not the moment to be lost.
I had a lil bit jaan pehchaan with the cafe guy. I was the regular customer there.So he knew me.I had wasted dad’s money and precious time there for writing mails to bela which she always replied lately and even when she did so, i could hardly get 10 lines of her in place of mine’s 100 lines. It was so mean na but it happens.This u have to face and realize when u r in love and u love the girl more than she does to you. Morever in between i had to come and check whether reply came or not and that added to my visits to the cafe.
Anyways me and Aryan were able to show our faces to the cafe guy after so much of struggle with the struggling aspiring engineers. He quickly recognised me and asked for roll number.
“140447 “ I said.
“140 578” Aryan said.
He asked us to wait until he checked and called for by roll numbers. We came out of the crowd and sat on the floor outside the cafe. Every second seemed like hours.My mind was totally clouded by thoughts and that were not of JEE but of bela. I could see bela infront of me and congratulating me for my selection,giving me a hug and then promising to marry me after 4 yrs when i graduate from india’s best technological college. And then there was another replica of bela side by side who was saying “ if u could not get through, just go to hell.i m no more yours.” Damn you sassy girl. I said to my self. Every minute seemed like hours . My mind was completely full of useless thoughts. Suddenly i heard a loud scream “ARJUN……140447 “.It was the cafe guy.
“what happened ??” i said.
It read “sorry”. He said.
I was blank. I could not think for a while. It seemed my life is over.But then i asked to him…”r u sure ??”
Next is what…..he handed me the printout.i could see my name and roll no. written on that and the much unwanted “sorry “ written in bold.
“Give me 20 rs. …for this” he said.
Y cant businessman understand emotions.?? How can you ask a guy money wen he has just come to know that he has flunked and flunked big time. And moreover i was the regular customer.huh!!!!
“we will give it together bhaiya…….” Aryan interfered.
I had even forgotten that Aryan was with me.his result was also to be out there. i just tried to recollect myself anyhow and turned to Aryan.
“i cud nt do it yaar…..”i said with tears rollin outta my eyes.
“don’t worry dude…there is always a next time.” He said convincingly.
“Bela wont be mine……i vl lose her……O god……!!! “ i said.
“u wil find sm1 else more worthful. Life doesn’t end here. And she dint deserve you.” Aryan said to me.
(y cant friends advise you on the right time specially when the matter is related to a gal. Friends always prefer not expressing their opinion about the girl you love. They r highly diplomatic in this case. Before today Aryan had never ever said bela was not worthful. damn you too Aryan.)
“140578….aryan”…….screamed the cafe guy again.
Aryan rushed there leaving me where i was sittin on the stairs just outside the cafe.he came back in a flash smiling and said “ i too dint make it “.
Both of us had flunked in one of the biggest exam of the nation.But there was a difference between us. I had tears in my eyes and he had smile on his eyes. Moreover i had lost my love and he had not. We decided to go to our adda where we can share our grief as it was mutual.
“ what will i tell bela……?? i m helpless.Everything i wanted seems distant dream now. She will never mail me.” I said to Aryan.
“ well forget bela!! What will you tell ur mother ?? “ came the reply.
“My mom understands me well. She will be disappointed but i will not lose her but bela is gone out of my life.” I said.
“O gosh!!! U are too much obsessed with bela. She is your just friends types and she never loved you. She just played this IIt game so that afterwards if you fail, she can easily ignore you. Girls are very smart and play with people like you.”
“But i love her and i really do and i mean it…..!!!!!! “ i said.
Then go and bang yourself.” Aryan replied angrily.
Lets go home……itz getting late. “he said.
What will i do at home ?? But where else can i go ?? i said depressingly.
We went to our respective homes. Mom saw me coming and she could easily see my sad face which revealed i had flunked.
“where were you beta ??” she said.
I dnt know from where did i get the confidence but somehow i replied
“ mom!! IIT result is out. I could not get through. “
For a moment she was stunned but then she said “ There is always a next time”
I heard this sentence twice.First it was Aryan and now its mom.I just wished if bela could say the same line.I went to my room and cried a lot silently on what i had done. I deserved this as i had not been serious. I wrote more on gmail than on my notebook. BULLSHIT!!!! And now i was realizing what an error i had commited. But one thing i had realized love is dangerous. Don’t play with it. I dint knew what to do, where to go….i was clueless till suddenly i decided i should mail my love that she is no more mine. And she never was. I got up my bed and went to the cafe. I don’t know why but i started hating the cafe. It seemed to haunt me. Anyways but i had to mail. I began typing…………
Hii gorgeous
I am pleased to inform you that i have flunked in your LITMUS test .I could not get through the entrance exam. And as per you i am not eligible to love you. Before you dump me ,I take this opportunity to thank you for realizing me that you were not meant for me.So do me a favour and email my heart. I did love you but that feeling is no more in me. You might be tempted to think that i am writing this in frustration or depression but i must tell you that i am depressed but not for losing you but for my failure. And i will be someday there where your IIt engineers may not reach .You have taught me a lesson. Thanks for that. This is the final BREAK UP mail. May god bless you. Lub u always.
ARJUN
P.S : wish you get ur dream IITIAN….
I clicked on the send tab. It felt as if i had done something proud. Certainly writing a break up mail is not a thing to be proud of. Many do it with tears in eyes. But i was happy and happy for myself. It did help get me outta the IIT thing. I paid the cafe guy and went off straight to home.
Mom had prepared rajma chawal. Just ate a lil bit and then went off to sleep. I was not the same arjun.I was someone else. My mind was preoccupied with so many thoughts. Reached my room switched off the lights and laid on the bed. Tried to sleep but it was not easy.
“radhe radhe radhe radhe……… “ That hard Anup jalota’s voice was enough to wake me up next day. My mom always plays that in the morning and makes sure Mr.Jalota is heard far and across. Rubbing my eyes i was getting out of my room till i heard “ what does he want to do now ??” dad asking my mom. I stopped my legs just to listen to their conversation.
“Yesterday his result was out and today only you have started shouting..ufffff!!!!!! “ mom said.
“Let your beloved son do whatever he wants to and keep wasting my hard earned money….i am not saying anything.” Profounded dad.
“your beloved son did score 85% in 12th board and on that day you were very happy,you should encourage him.IIT is not the only thing. May be if he tries again, he can succeed.” Replied mom angrily.
The best solution to end this discussion was to make my presence before them. As my parents never ever asked or even advised me to do this and do that. They always believed in me and my abilities but this time i had led them down. “I will make you proud one day. Dont worry mom-dad” I promised to myself and then went into the drawing room where the discussion was going on. I realised a pin drop silence there. I went to the wash room to do away with my waste.
Sitting on the sofa in a corner with the remote in my hand,i was trying hard to recollect myself. My mind was so much pre-occupied. Dad had left for office leaving the newspaper open. “Is IIT the only big thing in this world….?? certainly in india….!!!!!!” This is what came outta mah mind seeing the coaching institutes’s Big advertisements on the front page. So many had got thru and i was not amongst them. This was haunting like hell. I really want to get over this and quickly as possible…..
“slow down the volume and have your break fast Arjun…” mom screamed.
“Yup!!! “ I replied and straight away headed for the breakfast. Whatever my mood be,i cant resist eating.
Its hard to pass time when you have nothing to do and when you are on your low. I had managed somehow to do so and was at my adda waiting for Aryan to come. Everything was same….Kids struggling to become dhoni and yuvraj,kewl chics with the latest trends,traditionally cultured girls walking behind their mother, few people striving hard to loose flabs,oldies trying to be Baba Ramdev ,dust and ice-cream wala….altogether the whole NAZARA was same, except for one thing i was not the same . I used to be happy and today i was not. I was lost somewhere in my own world.
“Hey sorry !! was caught in some work..” Aryan interrupted my thoughts.
“So wssup ???” he quizzed again.
“ Aryan….everything is Down…nothing is up!!!!! “
“hmm…!!!! move on yaar….You can do anything good,you are talented.” Consolidated Aryan.
“I am planning to go to Dilli…..!!! i cant remain here.This place sucks now.I want to get over it.I want to forget bela,IIt,al dis…..” profounded me.
“Great idea!!!!! Awesome… Delhi is great place and you will find a hot one there. So many Punjabi gals are there.” Aryan said excitingly.
“Cmon Aryan !!!! i don’t want to go for girls.I want to do graduation from D.U”
“D.U??!!?? “ quizzed Aryan. He had such low GK.
“Delhi University…Dont u know ?? Its one of the best universities in India.Its from where so many personalities have studied from.Just hope i get admission there.”
“Ok!! You have got good marks, u will get it easily..” replied Aryan.
“Nah!!!!! Its not that easy.I want to land up in north campus where the best colleges are. And there is so much rush for admissions there. India has got so much talent…dont you know and everyone wants to be in best college.”
“ohho!!!! Whatever be!!! But what about your parents.” Said Aryan.
“ pata nhi yaar…..!! i have not even asked them, you are the first one to know about my plan. They will have to allow me.I cant live here…”
“Lets hope so!!!But i will miss you Arjun…” sadly said Aryan.
“Oyeee!!!!!! Thats gay….a guy missing guy…….get away from me…!” i laughingly teased Aryan because he looked sentiiii.”
Umm..uhh!! Its not yet final Aryan..dont get sad for me….i am not your girlfriend. And i will come back in vacations. We will have masti then……!!:)
“Ok!! Ok!! Dont give lectures now. First convince your parents. Do it fast otherwise admissions will be over there.” Said Aryan.
“That is the biggest task .I don’t know how they will react when they will listen that their would-be Engineer beta is going for ordinary graduation which only illiterates do as per them. Morever they might ask me to do it from here only.But i have to ..have to..have to….. “ i said in high voice.
“Ahem!!!!! Ahem!!!!! “ replied Aryan.
“Was that a wish or sarcasm Aryan…??”
“ hahahaha!!!!!! Chal its getting late now…tell me what happens today @ your home…?? “ Aryan stopped the long discussion.
“sure!!! I will let you know what happens.” I said to him and both of us left for our respective homes.
Same old story at home. Dad had come from office. His finished lunch box was lying in the corner reminding everyone of his arrival and news channels screaming loud their breaking news and dad hooked to their crap stories. Mom had gone out for buying vegetables and groceries in the nearby market. Ideally their son should go out and bring the vegetables but this son had no interest whatsoever. I had been irresponsible in this case. I sat on one side of the sofa at quite safe distance from dad. I really feared him. Since i was kinda task-less , i had nothing to do and i started following the news dad was listening to. Our Sardarji PM had announced some scheme for the poors. And some high intellects were trying to analyze the scheme. Dad gave me a hated look which i could sense but i preferred not to have eye contact with him.I wanted mom to come back home and then let my plans loose out. Watching news is sometimes interesting too, u get to see movie trailers in the break. Good job news people…!! atleast u provide entertainment in the break otherwise it would have been difficult for someone like me to keep staring at the screen.
Doorbell rings…!!!
I got up to open the door. It was mom and finally my wait was over. I carried the heavy bag to the kitchen and then came to my old position of struggle with the news channels. Mom straight away headed for making tea for both of us. I was busy planning how to execute and when to start my mission dilli. Mom came back with two cups of tea. I felt like i should start my mission right then but later seeing dad’s red face stopped myself. I wanted to talk about that when my dad will be in good mood. I had this habbit of contemplating things and presuming many things and human behaviour was one of them. So i thought wait for the moment to arrive. But the perfect idea to me was tell mom first and then ask her to convey to dad when all three of us will be there.
Dad went for the shower. I got the opportunity to speak up with mom. I told her about delhi university and my future plans of doing mba/mca after graduating from one of the best college in india. Mom was astonished after listening to me.She had infact no words. She only nodded her head and convinced me to talk about that to dad.
Dad had come and i hinted to mom to talk about that. Mom first hesitated but later on for the sake of her beloved son decided to take the risk.She told dad the words which were a copy paste stuff of mine. Dad listened silently and then came the biggest surprise.He said “ I can only give money,it depends on your son what he wants to do with his life,let him go.
It felt awesome . Finally i will be goin to “Dilwalo ki dilli “. My life was about to change. And i was ready to gooooo……….
( To be continued…….)
COMING SOON PART-II (DELHI KALLING>>>>>)…….
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